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im bloody pissed off and depressed - what do you do when youre tired of fighting but cant give up?
the feckin tight irish government are trying to tell me i dont have the right to live in dublin....
i have to tell them the nitty gritty details of my personal and family crisis before i have the same rights to live as the aisian and ethnic communities here!
what the hell - everyones forgotten about the good friday agreement already for christs sake - which clearly states that i have a birthright to live in ireland and call myself irish OR british OR both!! - which the irish have fought for for DECADES!
i am fighting the irish government now - i have just left northern ireland where i had to fight the bigoted unionist powers for every little thing - because i was irish - and now i have to fight to prove my right to live in ireland?!?!!??!?!?!
its mad
its fucking ludicrous!
im sick of it. i have enough to fight with my illnesses and single parenthood lonliness and personal reality crisises
what do they want from me? i have told them im irish, i have told them i want a better life in ireland, i have explained my personal problems in formal and decent tones and i do not think i should have to betray my own self respect and have my relationship problems bared open and written down for all agencies to see. what is private should be PRIVATE!
ah i have fought bastards for so long you would think by now id be good at it.
i feel like i either give in, go back and face a harder life, or go on, keep fighting for independance and peace of mind.
there is no such thing as an easy option
except suiside.
which i would NEVER do - and leave my poor vunerable baby in the hands of the monsters around me
no thanks
what do you do when youre tired of fighting but cant give up?
get some rest.
i have to tell them the nitty gritty details of my personal and family crisis before i have the same rights to live as the aisian and ethnic communities here!
what the hell - everyones forgotten about the good friday agreement already for christs sake - which clearly states that i have a birthright to live in ireland and call myself irish OR british OR both!! - which the irish have fought for for DECADES!
i am fighting the irish government now - i have just left northern ireland where i had to fight the bigoted unionist powers for every little thing - because i was irish - and now i have to fight to prove my right to live in ireland?!?!!??!?!?!
its mad
its fucking ludicrous!
im sick of it. i have enough to fight with my illnesses and single parenthood lonliness and personal reality crisises
what do they want from me? i have told them im irish, i have told them i want a better life in ireland, i have explained my personal problems in formal and decent tones and i do not think i should have to betray my own self respect and have my relationship problems bared open and written down for all agencies to see. what is private should be PRIVATE!
ah i have fought bastards for so long you would think by now id be good at it.
i feel like i either give in, go back and face a harder life, or go on, keep fighting for independance and peace of mind.
there is no such thing as an easy option
except suiside.
which i would NEVER do - and leave my poor vunerable baby in the hands of the monsters around me
no thanks
what do you do when youre tired of fighting but cant give up?
get some rest.
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Comment by lane on November 5, 2009 at 2:09pm - we can quit, but we can never give up.
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Comment by angela on November 5, 2009 at 1:30pm -
i know you will miss me , all, but tonight i will be languishing in bathing myself and watching supernatural series 5 with jaw struck wonder at the beauty of a certain man and watching good win over evil - BLISS!
see you all on the flip side
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